Thankful for pain

The pie was out, the turkey was in, stuffing slow cooking. Two kids happily playing minecraft, one napping, home alone 2 playing on the TV. It was peaceful. But even in that stereotypical moment, I was struck by the pain permeating through my body. This is the first Thanksgiving solo....

Sunbeams and Rainstorms

I know I've talked about fighting my darkness before, but a few nights ago I faced it with a ferocity I haven't felt in years. My inner voice was screaming lies at me and I was battling to block it out — and I felt like I was failing. Let...

Weary in the Journey

As I climbed the steps, my charming two year old gave me a life lesson that for whatever reason I forget constantly. "One more step." Let me give some context to this. I took my boys up to one of my favorite places on the planet, Paradise on Mt. Rainier....

Finding Myself in the Loss of Identity

That title sounds ridiculously heady, but stay with me for a moment. I promise it's worth it. Yesterday was Veteran's Day — a day that has long held high value for me. I grew up the child of an Air Force officer, and had the privilege of living on base...

Epidemic Proportion

Yet another large christian personality being outed for sexual impropriety this week. Truly my heart goes out to John and his family. I don't know him personally, but having been on this side of the equation for so long, I can infer quite a bit about how he's likely feeling...

Finding Joy in the Gray…

I did something this past weekend that I wasn't allowed to do for years. I made the choice, and I stand by it wholeheartedly. Call me crazy, but this year I'm embracing the moments that bring me joy because I know the power and sway the gray has had in...